gina

I am finally moved out of my inlaws and into my own home.  I am far from being settled, as working full time and having a full time crazy home schedule (tuesday swim class, wed night soccer and puppy classes, and Thursday Girl Scouts), has prevented me from really getting things done. I have taken days off here and there but apparently I have a lot of stuff!  I came home last night and my hubby surprised me with a new lap top computer, as I have not been able to go down stairs to get on my desk top as much as I would like…. so I am hoping that I will be able to get on here more often and keep myself accountable.  Over the last four/five months I am happy to say that I have been trying to eat better and excercise…..it has not always been as consistent as I hoped it would be, but I have lost 12 lbs which I am THRILLED with.  I need to drop about 18 more before my family trip to Disney in Sept.  (this is where I want to be at, for myself).  I am hoping that bc the weather is finally warming up, I can get outside more…take the dog for walks and eventually jogs around the new neighborhood. 

Anyways…. Just wanted to hop on and say hey to everyone. Hope all is well with my old friend on BS!!!

I have not been on here in forever… But I have started working out again and doing the WW points in an effort to get back on my weight loss plan.  My plan is to lose 30 lbs by the end of September, which is when we go to disney.  So far I have lost two pounds in a week, which has me geeked! 

Its been a little bit easier to stay on plan as I am currently living with my inlaws.   We are in the process of selling our house, which is an entirely seperate (and long) blog….  So we are inbetween houses and have been living with the inlaws for a little over a month….and my MIL is doing WW and excercises every day… as does my husband and my FIL…so whats a girl to do…. gotta do it too!  :)   So I have been excercising and eating better.  I got the Jillian Michael’s WII Fit game and I am loving it… its a challenge, but I am sweating when I finish (after thirty minutes). I am hoping to join the Gym, but until then my plan is working.

 I really hope to reconnect with some of the fantastic people I have met on here!  Everyone has been such an inspiration to me since joining! 

The good news is that we have finally sold our house, after a year and half on the market, it sold….. Something I am extremely greatful for, as the housing market is so bad that no one is really selling.  It has been an insane few weeks since we first got the offer on our house.  That was a long week of back and forth with the potential buyers…. but in the end, the decided to buy.  SO then began our hunt for a new home, which we have yet to find.  We have to be out of ours by Nov. 22 and have no where to move into yet.  We think we will be building, because we just can’t find a house we like (which should not be the case in this market).  The problem is we are only looking in one town bc we want our daughter to go to school there…..and there is limited houses that meet what we want.  So its looking like we are going to rent an apartment for a while until we can build. 

So what does all that have to do with weight loss????  Well, I havent been losing, rather gaining….. I am stressed beyond belief and therefore eating to deal with the stress…its insane.  I know I have not been on here, really on here, in a LONG time, and that is part of the issue….no accountability.  I have been eating like a crazy person and not excercising…… so add that together and you have a woman gaining insane weight.  But the plus side….. I realize this now and need to make a change.  I need to fit in excercise with all the other stuff, and I need to put down the fork!  So ONCE AGAIN…………………….  I am starting this journey over…wont be on line much as I pack and prepare for the move, but I am going to have to learn to hold myself accountable, thats all there is to it! 

Last year we took my daughter, who was almost five, to Disney. It had been her birthday present that year. We had a blast and knew that we would be making a return visit when she got a bit older and was not afraid of the people in costumes.  Well, we booked our next trip today. We will be going next september. I know that seems a bit far off, but its just the preliminary stuff we set up.   We are surprising my kiddo at christmas time….and its going to kill me to wait that long! 

This is my newest motivation to stick with my plan to lose weight.  I want to not hide from the camera on our trip (which I did last time).  I have done great this week excercising. As a family we have done the Wii Fit everynight…. for a thirty minutes each.  I am incredibly sore, but loving it.  It has been a lot of fun and I cant tell its working.   I am going to kick it into gear though… I want the weight gone well before the trip, and only have to maintain my hot new body:-) 

Well, I need to finish cleaning and then get to my clients house.  Hope everyone is doing fantastic.

Hey everyone. Its been awhile since I have posted a blog.  I have been slacking pretty much in all areas where weight loss and this site are concerned.  Things hit a chaotic point over here, and the area that got cut was this.  This is a typical thing for me….when things get insane, I take a back seat and focus on what needs to get focused on (my daughter, my husband, my job).  However, I am working on me again…. trying to make me a priority.  I FINALLY made an appointment with a local Dr’s office, as I have lived in this area for 6 years and have never established a doctor….my mom is a nurse, so when I have been really bad off, I just drive the hour + home and get help….So, thankfully one of my family friends and a former PA of mine moved to this area and I scheduled with her.  I am starting back on my medication today for anxiety and depression.  I always fight being on these because I hate being dependent on ANYTHING.  But I know I need to for myself and my family.  This will/should help me with my weight loss journey as well.  When I went off the meds last  year, I put on all this weight.  I know this will stop me from mindlessly eating when I am sad or anxious (which is a lot of the time).   So I am excited to see if I can get some results just from making this change. 

Yesterday was my hubby and I’s fifth wedding anniversary. Seems like just yesterday we got married.  We kept it low key. We had a soccer game for our daughter yesterday (side note: She kicked some butt again….her team is undefeated and unscored on.  She got hurt pretty bad…had a huge goose egg on her head, but got back in and played hard).  After the game she went with my mom and we went out to dinner and did some window shopping.  While window shopping, we happened to go to Best Buy and they just got in a shipment of WII Fit.  My hubby bought it for me for a joint anniversary gift (he already bought me beautiful flowers and a movie).  I was SOOOO Excited.  We came home and tried it out immediately.  I think I am going to love this new “game”.  The part I like the most is we are competative and I am hoping he will become invested in doing this also…I worry about him having a heart attack (he is overweight and heart problems run in his family).

So…..  I am rambling….but the bottom line here is I am on my meds, have a new plan for excercise (AGAIN), and feel a new sense of motivation.  I get so frustrated and down when these plans fail… its about finding something I can maintain and find time to do….and WANT to do…. so I am crossing my fingers that this will help me. 

I am kind of sad that summer has come to an end.  The end of summer brought the start of my daughter’s school career. She started Kindergarten this year and it was very difficult for me, as she is my only child and has grown up way to quickly.  I truly enjoyed the summer with her.  We went camping for the first time with her.  Although I was unsure how it would turn out, because she is a girly girl at times, she loved it and we are already looking forward to next summer when we go for a longer period of time.  We also spent a lot of time this summer with family, swimming and just enjoying time together.   The summer was also when I got serious about weight loss….. even though I have had a lot of ups and downs, I loved that I was able to wear a two piece bathing suit this summer and looked good in it (It was a tankini). 

 I love the fall. It is one of my favorite times of the year. I love the cooler weather and the leaves changing colors.   Fall always reminds me of high school and football season.  I love a good Fall day.   My daughter is playing soccer and I am enjoying watching her learn and grow.  I can’t wait until Halloween as it is one of my favorite holidays (and not because of the massive amounts of candy! LOL).  I love to see my daughters face light up as as goes door to door to get the goodies and then again when we get home and go through it all.  This time of year we always go to the apple orchard and enjoy picking apples, going on a hay ride, and sharing something yummy from the treat stand.  I LOVE APPLE CIDER and this is the best time of the year for it. I am also excited about the cool weather, as I can finally get out and walk without feeling like I am going to keel over in the heat.    I am excited about where I will be in my weight loss journey by the winter….  I want to be close to my goal by the end of fall, if not at it.  I can’t wait to see what the next few months have in store for me! 

For the past few weeks I have been lacking in motivation and energy. I can feel myself getting bigger… even though I have not gained, I just feel gross.  i went to the doctor and found out that there is nothing really wrong with me that has caused my TOM to be present for the past four weeks (going on the fifth)….just my body rejecting my birth control….so now I have to play around with that. This week has kicked my butt between my baby starting kindergarden (which has caused me to change my entire morning routine) and working insane hours to meet the needs of the families I work with.  I have just been exhausted. 

I have gained some new motivation though. I picked up a Self magazine and it has inspired me to get my butt in gear.  My life is so out of sorts in all areas, which causes my fitness and health to go waaaayyyy on the back burner.  So I am vowing a come back.  Tomorrow I am going to get up and clean. I am going to get my house in order and then the rest of my life.  No more excuses.  My husband and I celebrate our fifth anniversary in October and I will be at my mini goal at the very least by then.  This is my own personal challenge to myself.  So here I go again…. and this time I will succeed!!!!

I am really struggling.  For the past three weeks, (going on the fourth) I have had my monthly visitor in some form…..and it has left me with ZERO energy.  I have not been able to excercise in two weeks, because by the time I get home from work, I am so tired, I muster up enough energy to spend a few hours with my daughter, put her to bed, and then go to sleep.  I have eaten like crap for this time also…. because when I am tired, I eat…to stay awake.  I am going to the doctor on Thursday this week, and I have to say I am scared about what the outcome from that will be.  I made the mistake of of looking up my symptoms on WebMD…… The positive…yes, there is one from this…is that I have not gained one pound since this has begun…. but I havent lost it either, which is my frustration (but I dont expect to lose when I eat bad food and don’t excercise).  I just dont know anymore…… about anything at this point…… if this problem doesnt get fixed soon, I am going to be in serious trouble!  I need an energy boost to get my butt in gear!!!!!!!!

My hubby has returned, and things are slowly returning to normal.  However, he brought me back a gift from his trip….. a bag of carmel filled and rasberry filled ghirardelli squares….. one of my weaknesses…. and I have eaten almost the entire bag of carmel ones…:(  O.k…so maybe not the entire bag, I am sharing.  I am so weak.  Plus I think although he was being nice, it was a way for him to sabotage my progress….. He knows I love them….and he knows I will eat them, bc my will power is soooo sad!

I need help buddies…. I am seriously struggling with this process. I have been stuck yo-yoing between the same three pounds for over a month.  I dont know how to break through.  I am unmotivated and have days that I would rather sit and eat all day than do much else…… then I feel discusting and eat more out of depression.  I dont know what to do. I dont have a support system here.  My husband could care less if I lose….and I just dont know how to get back on board with this.  Any help or sugestions would be greatly appreciated! 

I took my hubby to the airport earlier this morning…..and the second I began to drive away I started missing him.  It is funny because all week I have been saying how I couldnt wait to have time to myself (well, time with my daughter) and whenever he goes away for a week, when he comes back we seem closer.  But I always have a hard time on Sundays when he is gone.  Sunday is the day we all spend together during the day…we have a ritual. We alwasy get up, read the sunday paper (mostly the ads), eat breakfast, play some Wii and then make our list for groceries.  Then we all get ready and head out…. I just have this empty feeling right now, because I know that not only is he not here, I can’t call him, bc he is on a plane headed to California.  My mom and dad are gone, and they would be my back up plan…. I hate it.  I will survive… I am a big girl….and I lived alone for a few years…but its amazing how the second he leaves for work trips, I become so darn dependent on having him here.  SO today, Lex (my daughter) and I are going to be doing the stuff we would normally do with him…. even if I get choked up from time to time…. I just gotta make it through today…. once Monday hits, I am back at work, and then I am going to my parents for an over night…. this week will be over before I know it, but I gotta get through today.

The POSITIVE to having him gone…. I get to eat how I want, without worrying about having to feed him.  Lex is easy to please…and I can focus on getting back on track with my new healthy lifestyle (hate to say diet).  My goal for this week is to lose 5 lbs before he comes back…. I am excited about the challenge.  It will be hard fitting in excercise, bc normally he takes Lex while I excercise, so I will have to get creative. 

Another POSTIVE is that we bought a new car on Saturday and although we will both be driving it from time to time, its mainly his to get to work and back…. well, I get to drive it this week which makes me happy…. PLUS tomorrow I get to take it in to have a new rear view mirror put on it, and while it is getting worked on, I get to drive around my future car…the one that will replace my hunk of junk when it dies….(the car i want is a CR-V).   SO I am excited about that. 

 So here are my goals for the week:

1. Get on track with my eating

2. WATER

3. Try to maintain sanity while my hubby is away

4. EXCERCISE every day (sunday through Friday)

5. LOSE 5 LBS!!!!!!!